Transcript
WEBVTT
00:00:02.927 --> 00:00:05.934
Hello and welcome to Keep Hope Alive podcast.
00:00:05.934 --> 00:00:08.769
Today I got Ms Sarah Rose Healy here.
00:00:08.769 --> 00:00:16.910
She's a cycle awareness mentor and a woman's empowerment coach and we're going to be diving into her story on everything she does.
00:00:16.910 --> 00:00:23.126
And she does restored naps and you know me from past shows if you watched them.
00:00:23.126 --> 00:00:26.493
I was always on Ambien for five years, so I have those stories.
00:00:26.493 --> 00:00:30.123
But if you could teach me how to nap, that's great and welcome to the show.
00:00:30.123 --> 00:00:33.652
Thank you, oh, you're welcome.
00:00:33.652 --> 00:00:37.250
So before we get started, I do have a question for you.
00:00:37.250 --> 00:00:45.276
Let's say we had a best friend and she was getting married and we were going to the wedding and everything.
00:00:45.276 --> 00:00:52.880
We're walking into the ceremony part and to the right we saw something we had to sign to let them know we were there.
00:00:52.880 --> 00:00:54.963
What would we be signing?
00:00:54.963 --> 00:00:56.968
The guest book.
00:00:57.789 --> 00:01:02.984
I actually did that at the wedding once, so now, I know, see, there's so many different things.
00:01:03.003 --> 00:01:17.563
I hear the picture frame, I hear Jenga pieces, some people I had somebody actually say their life away, and I just kind of giggle at that one because, no, we don't sign their life away.
00:01:17.563 --> 00:01:25.626
But, however, life on Record is one of our sponsors here at Keep Hope Alive and what they do instead of the guest book.
00:01:25.626 --> 00:01:26.469
This is so cool.
00:01:26.469 --> 00:01:33.626
They have a vintage rotary phone for the guests to pick up and right next to it they put a QR code.
00:01:33.626 --> 00:01:40.171
In case the line's too long, your guests can use their mobile device and scan that and leave a message on that phone.
00:01:40.171 --> 00:01:43.189
But you go on the vintage phone, pick it up.
00:01:43.189 --> 00:01:45.807
Congratulations, you guys.
00:01:45.807 --> 00:01:47.204
We're so happy for you.
00:01:47.204 --> 00:01:48.269
You guys are buried.
00:01:48.269 --> 00:01:51.250
Long love, happiness and best wishes.
00:01:51.250 --> 00:01:55.191
Or maybe it's the groomsman saying, hey, it's about time you put a ring on her finger.
00:01:55.760 --> 00:02:06.841
So all these messages I call it the gift of voice gets collected and they will either burn it on a 12-inch vinyl record and the whole thing is customized about.
00:02:06.841 --> 00:02:10.489
You know so-and-so's wedding and here's the messages.
00:02:10.489 --> 00:02:12.332
Or they have a little.
00:02:12.332 --> 00:02:17.551
I call it the boom box, but it's a speaker and you know, just think about it.
00:02:17.551 --> 00:02:21.659
So let's say it's almost at their one year anniversary.
00:02:21.659 --> 00:02:30.591
They can sit back, eat that cake that they're supposed to save and listen to all the messages and just reflect back on that big special day.
00:02:30.591 --> 00:02:32.200
So it's great.
00:02:32.341 --> 00:02:35.407
It goes for any different events.
00:02:35.407 --> 00:02:37.251
Yes, I'm going to say funerals.
00:02:37.251 --> 00:02:41.525
I think that is a key one funerals, anniversaries, corporate events.
00:02:41.525 --> 00:02:46.813
I used it for my son's football team when a kiddo got hurt and broke his leg.
00:02:46.813 --> 00:02:50.105
We had everybody call in and leave a message for him.
00:02:50.105 --> 00:02:53.753
So it's used in so many different ways.
00:02:53.753 --> 00:02:55.924
Now you get the phone number.
00:02:55.924 --> 00:03:01.305
I have to say number, because the phone is so cute You'll want to keep it, but you have to return it.
00:03:01.305 --> 00:03:03.612
You get it for one year.
00:03:03.612 --> 00:03:09.395
Now, especially with weddings, I would say call back before their one year anniversary and wish them a happy anniversary.
00:03:09.395 --> 00:03:16.873
Their plans start at $99, which is very, very good, and you get that gift of voice.
00:03:16.873 --> 00:03:17.514
I love it.
00:03:17.514 --> 00:03:23.968
To find out more information about Life on Record, visit them at wwwlifeonrecordcom.
00:03:23.968 --> 00:03:27.615
All right, so the biggest question we have today.
00:03:27.615 --> 00:03:31.631
Another one, I love throwing questions who is Sarah Rose Healy?
00:03:33.540 --> 00:03:39.300
Well, I always find those kinds of questions like so awkward to you know, you're like where do you start?
00:03:39.300 --> 00:04:02.372
You know, um, but I think I think where I want to start and like kind of where I want to go now is, um, really, when I started to feel this calling to do this cycle awareness work because that's what really it is is a calling because I never thought I would be speaking and writing online about periods and menstrual cycles.
00:04:02.372 --> 00:04:05.715
It wasn't like I was like I'm going to go, this is what I'm doing for my life's work.
00:04:05.715 --> 00:04:43.670
But over the last 10 years, and really in the last five, after my daughter my daughter ended up getting sick with Lyme disease and she needed me to be here with her all the time and so I was home for really like two years for like straight, for really like two years for like straight, without really leaving because she couldn't, she needed me there.
00:04:43.670 --> 00:04:50.036
But it was a time of that 10 years ago, I started to question things.
00:04:50.922 --> 00:04:58.103
In different groups that I was in, I was like why is it that we don't talk about menstrual cycle awareness?
00:04:58.103 --> 00:05:04.163
Like why is it that we don't like it's not part of like all these different things?
00:05:04.163 --> 00:05:28.524
Like it just started to like come into my awareness and it baffled me and I, when I would ask questions, um, I wouldn't get any answers and it was really frustrating Cause I was like it's like this doesn't even exist, it's like we don't, it's not part of who we are, even though it's this gigantic piece of the puzzle and the ancient wisdom that is within us.
00:05:28.524 --> 00:05:33.362
And I know I'm kind of like not even saying anything about myself, so maybe do I.
00:05:33.362 --> 00:05:34.305
Should I wait and talk?
00:05:34.365 --> 00:05:37.997
about no, you're all good, I'm drawn in.
00:05:37.997 --> 00:05:38.980
I love hearing this.
00:05:39.019 --> 00:05:39.800
Yeah, so.
00:05:39.800 --> 00:05:44.684
So I actually tried to do this work about.
00:05:44.684 --> 00:05:51.468
I think it was about five years ago where I was trying to help people heal their period pain, but that wasn't.
00:05:51.468 --> 00:06:13.076
It wasn't like this passion for me in that space, because the part that I really love working with women on is their self connection and self understanding, because I I felt like for myself when I was missing information about who I was and how my body functioned and how I functioned.
00:06:13.076 --> 00:06:25.394
I misunderstood myself and then I judged myself constantly and I had these expectations of myself to be a certain way, when what I say all the time is as not.
00:06:25.654 --> 00:06:32.533
As women, we are not meant to be the same all the time, like we are not meant to function in a linear way.
00:06:32.533 --> 00:06:41.588
We are cyclical beings and the interesting thing that I find fascinating is that men cycle daily.
00:06:41.588 --> 00:06:45.271
Their home run cycles go up and down daily.
00:06:45.271 --> 00:06:52.086
Women cycle, so they cycle in 24 hours and we cycle in a 28, 29 day.
00:06:52.086 --> 00:06:55.673
It's, you know, varies, for everyone cycle, but we live.
00:06:55.673 --> 00:07:13.641
We live in a society that functions in a 24 hour cycle and that that's the productivity cycle that we're conditioned and like indoctrinated into and that we've actually never even questioned because it's just like that's been our reality, right?
00:07:13.641 --> 00:07:18.473
Yeah, I'm sorry if you hear banging, but I live in an old house and the heat is banging.
00:07:19.560 --> 00:07:22.865
So I don't hear anything, but that's cool yeah.
00:07:23.326 --> 00:07:34.771
So that was really like when I started to get really like lit up about this work and then I was introduced to another layer of it.
00:07:34.771 --> 00:07:53.954
Oh well, I actually healed my own cycle and my relationship to it through just starting to pay attention and starting to pay attention to like what I was naturally drawn to do, and it like it wasn't a full concept back then when I started it.
00:07:53.954 --> 00:07:58.913
And now, looking back, I'm like, oh, that's what I was doing and I know the why.
00:07:58.913 --> 00:08:08.153
And so I remember a specific night where it was like I think I was probably just about to start my period.
00:08:08.153 --> 00:08:09.682
So it was like a few days before.
00:08:10.345 --> 00:08:15.687
When you know that like you get really tired, you can feel more cranky, Maybe you feel like you want to withdraw.
00:08:17.480 --> 00:08:50.254
And my daughter was going to do a tryout for a play and I just was like it was like a long drive with a lot of people and I just I finally just like chose myself and I was like ask my husband if he would take her, not that he would always do that, but I just it was I was planning on doing it, and so I asked him to take her and I just laid on the couch and did nothing and like it was like not anything profound but it was, when I look back, that was like my turning point to claiming what I actually needed to take care of myself.
00:08:51.860 --> 00:09:18.250
And and I've done this, like it's grown over time to into like a calling and the work that I'm now doing in the world with women, in the world with women, and that like it was this, that was my restorative rest, where then I was able to be present with my family later on in a deeper way because I paid attention to what I needed and it made me a better mother, like that's the other.
00:09:18.250 --> 00:09:24.009
It's like this practicing menstrual cycle awareness makes me a better mother.
00:09:24.009 --> 00:09:44.148
It makes me a better friend because I'm paying attention and I'm I'm learning who I am on a really deep cellular, like ancient, because there's this ancient blueprint within all of us that has been ignored and suppressed and repressed and vilified and shamed.
00:09:44.148 --> 00:09:45.611
And you know, it's like now.
00:09:45.611 --> 00:09:57.510
I'm like doing research on the history of our cycles and it's like mind boggling and so upsetting to learn about it, but it's important, it's important work.
00:09:58.640 --> 00:10:01.648
Well, I hear you definitely with cycles and everything.
00:10:01.648 --> 00:10:04.033
I'm glad we're having this conversation.
00:10:04.033 --> 00:10:07.908
I really don't care on my end, who knows this about me.
00:10:07.908 --> 00:10:26.289
But here let me throw this at you See, what you know, everybody does have a blueprint, but the people who have actually had a hysterectomy full ovaries out, full Now I don't know if this is a hormonal thing, because everybody's like I don't know if this is a hormonal thing because everybody's like no, we don't know what's wrong with you.
00:10:27.270 --> 00:10:38.263
I went to a top specialist for gynecology and cancer and all he said is my blood work is like cows, chickens and horses.
00:10:38.263 --> 00:10:40.647
And I was like oh, did you win all these awards here?
00:10:40.647 --> 00:10:45.201
And he's like yes, and I was like you just called me a farm animal, I'm out.
00:10:45.201 --> 00:10:45.541
Here is what.
00:10:45.541 --> 00:10:47.264
He was like yes, and I was like you just called me a farm animal, I'm out.
00:10:47.264 --> 00:10:49.147
Here is what it was happening to me.
00:10:49.147 --> 00:11:02.684
So I mean, it's been years since I had that procedure, and when they do my blood work, I hear congratulations, aren't you excited?
00:11:02.684 --> 00:11:04.006
And I'm like I'm what?
00:11:04.006 --> 00:11:04.528
Well, you're pregnant?
00:11:04.528 --> 00:11:05.288
I'm not.
00:11:05.288 --> 00:11:06.070
I'm not pregnant.
00:11:06.070 --> 00:11:14.710
It's happened a total of nine times now and nobody can figure it out and I have no answers.
00:11:14.710 --> 00:11:15.812
So, but I've been.
00:11:15.812 --> 00:11:18.523
If I look back at it, I've been pregnant for three years.
00:11:19.304 --> 00:11:23.985
I think it was funny because my doctor is like well, you just got tested again and I did.
00:11:23.985 --> 00:11:28.505
And the lady who I'll never forget this, she's like don't say anything.
00:11:28.505 --> 00:11:29.970
And I was going to tell her.
00:11:29.970 --> 00:11:33.849
I'm a hard stick, that's all I was going to tell her and I stayed quiet.
00:11:33.849 --> 00:11:35.312
She got it on the first try.
00:11:35.312 --> 00:11:36.520
I'm very happy about that.
00:11:36.520 --> 00:11:40.224
But she's like aren't you excited?
00:11:40.224 --> 00:11:43.186
And I go no, you think I'm pregnant, don't you?
00:11:43.186 --> 00:11:45.467
She goes it's right here, you're pregnant, you're pregnant.
00:11:45.467 --> 00:11:46.808
And it's like Christmas time.
00:11:46.808 --> 00:11:51.352
And I was like, no, I had a hysterectomy and ovaries out, there's no baby.
00:11:51.352 --> 00:11:56.976
She goes Mary, I go I'm not Mary from the Bible.
00:12:05.100 --> 00:12:06.268
So I was like God did not put a child right inside of me.
00:12:06.268 --> 00:12:07.033
So, yeah, I kid around with my daughter.
00:12:07.033 --> 00:12:07.677
It was an immaculate conception.
00:12:07.697 --> 00:12:10.229
Yeah right, I was like when is this going to happen?
00:12:11.523 --> 00:12:16.033
That is really disturbing, to be honest, that that's what's happening to you.
00:12:16.033 --> 00:12:23.350
I mean, in a way of just like, how is that the way that they're?
00:12:23.350 --> 00:12:25.092
Yeah, how is that possible?
00:12:25.092 --> 00:12:29.849
But how are they bringing that to you with that lack of awareness, like well?
00:12:29.889 --> 00:12:34.120
here's the crazy thing, I can't say the hospital of his eye.
00:12:34.120 --> 00:12:34.984
It was a really good one.
00:12:34.984 --> 00:12:36.508
They're like we can't do this.
00:12:36.508 --> 00:12:40.283
We got to send you to this bigger hospital in Dallas.
00:12:40.283 --> 00:12:43.227
They didn't even touch it.
00:12:43.227 --> 00:12:46.052
I don't even think they wanted to.
00:12:46.052 --> 00:12:48.600
You know, check it out honestly.
00:12:48.600 --> 00:12:55.423
So I was in the hospital but they found something more concerning that they had to do an emergency surgery on.
00:12:55.423 --> 00:12:59.211
So it kind of got overlooked and I'm still without answers.
00:12:59.211 --> 00:13:03.884
But you know I'm not going to worry about it and leaving it in God's hands, obviously.
00:13:04.385 --> 00:13:13.729
But when we talked about hormones and stuff, the blueprint for me is confusing and I guess it's the way the blood flows.
00:13:13.729 --> 00:13:15.578
But you follow that.
00:13:15.578 --> 00:13:20.750
And then I remember, as you were talking too, when I did have my cycles.
00:13:20.750 --> 00:13:28.461
I wish I had a better understanding of how not to let the seven days go by and be miserable.
00:13:28.461 --> 00:13:30.605
The only blueprint.
00:13:30.605 --> 00:13:32.850
I was like what is going to make me comfortable?
00:13:32.850 --> 00:13:34.394
Do I have my adult?
00:13:34.394 --> 00:13:35.881
Do I have my Aleve?
00:13:35.881 --> 00:13:38.648
Do I have a heating pad to help me?
00:13:38.648 --> 00:13:42.193
And then it just got so bad.
00:13:42.193 --> 00:13:45.063
You know how women get really, really bad periods.
00:13:45.063 --> 00:13:47.027
Mine was unbelievable.
00:13:47.027 --> 00:13:57.297
So that's why I just I went to go see the doctor and get the hysterectomy, but it's just kind of like a float, because you are so right on.
00:13:57.297 --> 00:14:01.698
That is, how can you be the better person while you have to go through this?
00:14:01.698 --> 00:14:05.245
So I'm sorry, I just had to tell you that.
00:14:05.759 --> 00:14:17.845
No, I mean, this is a very common story, I think, because there's such, there's such misinformation and lack of information out there about women's hormones, women's cycles, and women feel like that one.
00:14:17.845 --> 00:14:21.273
Their only choice to get better is to have a hysterectomy.
00:14:21.273 --> 00:14:24.528
You know, and it's not a wrong choice, it's, it is.
00:14:24.528 --> 00:14:28.385
It's, I feel like it's a product of like, of not.
00:14:28.385 --> 00:15:25.090
There's not a lot of research that's been done on women and their cycles and their hormones, and doctors don't get a ton of training on menopause, perimenopause and just like cycle awareness, and so that's why we're seeing so much sickness, you know, dis-ease in women connected to their cycles, because we have this huge disconnection between because it is a spirit, it's a group of, or I'm trying to say there's a company called Red School and they teach all about this work and that they have coined it women's original spiritual practice, because everything that we need to know about what needs to happen for us is in that.
00:15:25.350 --> 00:15:33.051
And even if, even like you, are still a cyclical, being connected to the moon cycles, that's not something I like.
00:15:33.051 --> 00:15:34.822
I love that, but I'm not.
00:15:34.822 --> 00:16:00.433
I don't pay tons of attention to it Yet I haven't really dived deep into it, but I feel like I think it's just so important for us now to really learn about this so that we understand ourselves and so that we are getting, like we don't give up, like you deserve to have answers and have someone who's going to be your advocate.
00:16:00.433 --> 00:16:02.000
And there are women, there are.
00:16:02.000 --> 00:16:33.726
There are, you know, women's wellness practitioners you're in like the like naturopathic world that are going to be able to dive deeper and give you more information and even do, like hormone testing and all of those things that you'd be able to get a lot more information about what's going on in your body, because that, you know, lack of information and an answer to me is unacceptable, like it is, and my friend just talked to me and she goes.
00:16:34.249 --> 00:16:40.094
she went there and she wanted to get answers but they had nothing for her.
00:16:40.094 --> 00:16:40.980
Yeah, and.
00:16:41.019 --> 00:16:51.446
I've come up against that myself where, yeah, I'm going to, like I'm going to my what were they the midwives have?
00:16:51.446 --> 00:16:53.248
It's like I'm really one of my other.
00:16:53.248 --> 00:17:15.074
Like passions is like empowered wellness and like really advocating for women, getting the answer.
00:17:15.074 --> 00:17:26.794
Like not giving up and getting the answers and being advocated for like self, like self advocating and and not going, oh, it must be just me, right?
00:17:26.794 --> 00:17:30.428
Instead, it's like no, the system is not designed to support you.
00:17:30.428 --> 00:17:32.795
We need to dig deeper than that.
00:17:32.795 --> 00:17:38.309
Like you know, this is my soapbox because I I get really fired up about that.
00:17:38.710 --> 00:17:42.861
I was like what if we excuse me, guys, I'm still getting over laryngitis.
00:17:42.861 --> 00:17:52.384
What if we dug so deep and found out like and if it's spiritual awareness, what if we could take away menopause?
00:17:52.384 --> 00:17:52.825
That would?
00:17:52.845 --> 00:17:56.886
be so fun.
00:17:56.886 --> 00:18:16.914
And the thing is is that PMS, you know, and menopause have been, has been medicalized and made to be like it's a syndrome, right, Like PMS syndrome, and I told myself I wasn't going to talk about this today, but but like.
00:18:17.015 --> 00:18:19.895
No, I want you to not these are it's, it's.
00:18:19.996 --> 00:18:25.199
This isn't to minimize what's going on for women, because it is real, like what you experience is real.
00:18:25.199 --> 00:19:02.851
But calling it a syndrome and putting it in the DSM as like a brain based disorder is like, like it's maddening for one thing, but it takes away the fact that these are signals from your body giving you information about what is not working, because your cycle has actually been considered the sixth vital sign, because it gives you all the information Like something's not working, something's not right, and so we're getting this information.
00:19:02.851 --> 00:19:04.756
But it makes total sense.
00:19:04.756 --> 00:19:05.990
Like it's not our fault.
00:19:05.990 --> 00:19:08.854
It's not our fault because we weren't taught this.
00:19:08.854 --> 00:19:13.501
No, like the information hasn't been free flowing until you know.
00:19:13.582 --> 00:19:21.325
Now it's starting to be a lot more you know out there, but you have to do the research and it feels hard, right.
00:19:21.325 --> 00:19:31.211
It's like you're scratching the surface of something that has been suppressed for millennia, like it changed it never.
00:19:31.211 --> 00:19:36.933
Like women used to be when they were on their period, when they were in their, on their moon time.
00:19:36.933 --> 00:19:39.736
They used to be revered in communities.
00:19:39.736 --> 00:19:54.032
It was a sacred thing where you're tuned into like your highest self, your intuition, like wisdom, and they were revered and supported.
00:19:54.032 --> 00:19:59.104
This is how it used to be, and I feel like it could be kind of triggering to hear all this stuff.
00:19:59.404 --> 00:20:00.528
You're like how did this happen?
00:20:00.528 --> 00:20:01.090
I?
00:20:01.112 --> 00:20:01.693
don't know.
00:20:01.865 --> 00:20:07.628
It's interesting and and and as well.
00:20:07.628 --> 00:20:25.766
I mean there's like specific time when things started to shift and it's kind of like going back to like the witch hunts and all of that, when women who are just powerful medicine, women, healers, were being, you know, vilified for just being.
00:20:25.766 --> 00:20:27.229
You know who.
00:20:27.229 --> 00:20:38.271
We, you know you probably interview a lot of these women now, right, um, but this is like, um, like there was all this.
00:20:38.893 --> 00:20:50.974
It feels like all this information that was put out about how menstrual cycles would like kill crops could make men impotent, like I literally read something the other day that was saying it could kill the bees.
00:20:50.974 --> 00:20:54.131
Like this is the stuff that we don't even know.
00:20:54.131 --> 00:21:18.295
That's been like running under the surface, why we're walking around feeling like, okay, I don't want anyone to know I'm buying tampons, right, like because there's been it's just been a underlying whatever climate of shame and hiding and thinking this makes us whatever dirty, or all the things that we've been, you know.
00:21:18.295 --> 00:21:36.489
Think about all the things that you've been conditioned to believe about your cycle, that it makes you, you know you're hormonal and you know, uh, but really that's just your what happens?
00:21:36.568 --> 00:21:41.278
like when you get closer to your cycle, you just have less tolerance for that.
00:21:41.278 --> 00:21:53.637
Closer to your cycle, you just have less tolerance for that Like there's almost like this, you don't feel everything is acutely, and then it gets closer to your cycle and all the stuff that you were like this didn't sit well with me comes back up.
00:21:53.637 --> 00:21:58.411
And that's why, like, this is where I work with women is about looking at that stuff.
00:21:58.411 --> 00:22:02.618
That's coming up and taking action to make a change.
00:22:02.618 --> 00:22:08.218
Right, instead of just being like I'm just being can I swear, oh, you can.
00:22:08.218 --> 00:22:20.306
Okay, I'm just being bitchy, right, it's like, no, you've been dishonoring yourself for so long, not realizing that's what you're doing, right, because we don't even know.
00:22:20.925 --> 00:22:40.960
And it comes up like you're like power potency, you're like no more, and but that's been vilified about us, but instead it's really about your discernment and your ability to be like I'm not okay with the thing that that person said and I need to go like have a conversation with them.
00:22:40.960 --> 00:22:58.885
And so what I found as I started doing that, as I started paying attention to those potencies, my PMS symptoms started to go away and I was like, and again like I want to re-term the PMS word, but for right now it's understood by many people.
00:22:58.885 --> 00:23:08.394
So that's why I'm using it, so that I would get to the point where I didn't even know I was about to get my period anymore, because I no longer had all that stuff.
00:23:08.394 --> 00:23:27.969
Because if you look at it through Chinese medicine, they talk about PMS being blocked qi, which is life force energy, and so when you start to clear the blocks, you release the blocks in your life force energy and you reduce your symptoms.
00:23:29.692 --> 00:23:31.855
Wow, I like that term.
00:23:31.855 --> 00:23:37.210
Yeah, we're superheroes, yes, well, I think all women are superheroes.
00:23:37.210 --> 00:23:43.119
I mean, we've had to go through all these cycles and it's a learning experience too.
00:23:43.119 --> 00:23:51.131
So but yeah, I remember getting mean the first couple of days and I didn't want to be mean, but that's just.
00:23:51.131 --> 00:24:04.674
You know, with everything fluctuating, it's like I felt bad because I'd be like, just don't talk to me, no, just let me be, I need a couple of days, and I hated saying that.
00:24:04.674 --> 00:24:11.097
And when my daughter finally got older, she was, oh my gosh, she was a clone of me.
00:24:11.097 --> 00:24:23.300
So payback, like, get away, mom, okay, but you know, how is it that women who have best friends, they can jump on the same cycle?
00:24:24.506 --> 00:24:29.586
I mean that I feel like that's like the big mystery, right, like.
00:24:29.586 --> 00:24:30.890
But we pull the like.
00:24:30.890 --> 00:24:38.846
I said to my daughter I'm like you pulled me into your orbit, you know, because she pulled me in, and I mean, I think it's just, it's.
00:24:38.846 --> 00:24:49.095
I think it's what it's meant to happen, like I don't, I don't have an answer for that, but but what I did want to say is that you're meant, you're meant to pull away.
00:24:49.095 --> 00:24:52.057
Like there is this need to separate.
00:24:52.057 --> 00:24:58.902
That is like a biological ancient blueprint within you, and we're like fighting against it.
00:24:58.902 --> 00:25:12.103
So it's causing friction, but like and we also don't live in a society that really supports you know, it's all about productivity versus rest, and so I just looked at the clock and it's 1111.
00:25:12.103 --> 00:25:13.847
I love it, that's a good number.
00:25:14.048 --> 00:25:14.790
You're just like me.
00:25:14.790 --> 00:25:15.894
That's a good.
00:25:15.894 --> 00:25:16.856
That's a good number.
00:25:17.585 --> 00:25:54.185
But even just acknowledging, like sometimes it's not even about taking action, but it's like acknowledging the fact that, like I am meant to pull away right now, Like I'm meant to be alone, so where can I get, like, where can I take time for myself in honoring that, even in just a small like shift, because I think we tend to be this like I have to do it all now, right, and then it feels overwhelming, but really it's like it's an internal mental shift and then a slow shift into how can I do this in a different way.
00:25:55.145 --> 00:25:58.587
Um, yeah, I, I had to make a joke.
00:25:58.587 --> 00:26:02.128
It's a really bad joke, but I'm starting to date again.
00:26:02.128 --> 00:26:07.372
And I told this guy I only want to date you for like three years.
00:26:07.372 --> 00:26:08.893
And he just started giggling.
00:26:08.893 --> 00:26:10.333
Why I go?
00:26:10.333 --> 00:26:11.834
Because menopause is going to hit.
00:26:11.834 --> 00:26:13.253
And he goes oh, you're right.
00:26:13.253 --> 00:26:16.675
It's like giving him the card to go away.
00:26:18.336 --> 00:26:21.018
But you know early signs.
00:26:21.018 --> 00:26:26.901
I didn't know if it was and that's where my doctor was like no, she didn't really know.
00:26:26.901 --> 00:26:30.642
But I remember I went on Amazon and bought one of those.
00:26:30.642 --> 00:26:31.423
What is it?
00:26:31.423 --> 00:26:32.722
It's like a neck fan.
00:26:32.722 --> 00:26:39.174
And I was like, oh my gosh, and it's so funny because it really cools you down.
00:26:39.174 --> 00:26:47.653
And then that, compared to my last job which is really funny I had to dress up in a mascot outfit.
00:26:48.134 --> 00:26:51.231
Oh God, I didn't know there was a fan inside it.