Feb. 18, 2025
Healing and Transformation: Jacqueline Carson's Journey from Social Work to Hypnotherapy and Spiritual Awakening
What happens when the high-stakes environment of social work meets a personal health crisis? Jacqueline Carson joins us to share her transformative journey from child protection social work to becoming a clinical hypnotherapist and meditation teacher. Diagnosed with breast cancer in 2014, Jacqueline found herself at a crossroads, leading to profound lifestyle changes and a newfound passion for hypnotherapy. Discover how she overcame smoking and drinking, and learn about the critical role hypnotherapy played in her healing journey, offering her a fresh perspective on managing stress and health.
We also venture into the mysterious world of spiritual awakenings and extraordinary out-of-body experiences. With a personal connection to epilepsy, Jacqueline reveals how childhood experiences and seizures opened doors to profound questions about consciousness and existence. This episode uncovers personal stories of self-discovery, where understanding from medical professionals often falls short. Through these experiences, Jacqueline and her friends explore the power of personal growth and creativity when societal expectations no longer bind them.
The power of hypnotherapy extends beyond personal healing, influencing habits and addictions, particularly in empowering women. Amidst the backdrop of the COVID-19 pandemic, Jacqueline's hypnotherapy practice has adapted, offering online sessions and group workshops. We explore The Rewired Woman program, aimed at helping women realign their minds and bodies through holistic practices like yoga and meditation. Get inspired by success stories and upcoming retreats that focus on chakra work and other healing modalities, inviting listeners to embrace mindful choices for a balanced, fulfilling life.
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Chapters
00:02 - Transformation Through Hypnotherapy and Wellness
17:03 - Awakening to Spiritual Experiences
23:29 - Journey of Self-Discovery and Healing
38:40 - Breaking Habits With Hypnotherapy
51:35 - Empowering Women Through Mind-Body Healing
Transcript
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Hello and welcome to Keep Hope Alive podcast.
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We have a great show for you today.
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I got Miss Jacqueline Carson here with us.
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Thank you for coming on to the show.
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She's a hypnotherapist, mediation teacher.
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She does yoga I guess classes is that and also she is the owner of the Rewired Woman and we are going to dive into everything that she does because she is a multi-talented woman.
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So, but really quick, I'm going to ask a quick question.
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So say, we're the best of friends and we just got invited to go to a wedding and we're walking into the ceremony part and off to the right we see something that we would have to sign, I guess, to let the couple know that we were there.
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What is it that they're signing?
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Definitely a non-disclosure agreement, I think.
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Well, that's a good answer any other.
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First thing that came into my head just like the lips are sealed, you don't say anything, just yeah, whatever goes on, goes on.
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Nobody knows anything.
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Yes, definitely.
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Well, one of our biggest sponsors is Life on Record, and what they do is take over the guestbook, or some people would call it the register.
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So they put a vintage rotary phone out that you can pick up and leave a message for the couple.
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Now, I always use wedding as my go-to, but this can be for any kind of event that you have.
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So they have right next to the phone a QR code that you can scan with your mobile device too, if you didn't want to use the phone and leave a message as well.
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So if it's a wedding, you could hear hi, you guys are the greatest.
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I'm wishing you a lifetime happiness of your marriage.
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And then maybe a groomsman is on there going hey, it's about time you put a ring on her finger.
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So it's the collection of all of these congratulations you're getting from your friends, your family and what they do.
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They'll burn it onto a 12-inch record or they'll put it on a speaker I call it the boom box and it's all personalized and cute to use.
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And the phone number.
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You got to return the phone, but the phone number is good for one year, so you can keep leaving messages if you wanted to To find out more about Life on Record, please visit them at wwwlifeonrecordcom.
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All right, so here we go, miss Jacqueline.
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So who's Miss Jacqueline Carson?
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Hello and thank you for having me on.
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It's really lovely to be here, hi oh thank you.
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So I'm gonna ask who are you?
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Okay, right, oh, wow, um, well, as you said, um, I'm a clinical hypnotherapist, a meditation teacher, um, and I'm a kundalini yoga student.
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I'll explain a little bit more about that, but I haven't always been, and my background is in social work, and I trained and qualified in child protection social work quite a few years ago now, but what I found was, over the years, it's certainly's certainly really very, very stressful, um, job, um, and I found that I was really, I suppose, really quite struggling to cope with, you know, the stress of the job, um, the very, very long hours working late into the night and through the evenings and things, and, and, um, and I was a single parent as well, so trying to raise my kids, um, and everything that goes, you know, along with that.
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And then, um, I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2014, on the 1st of April I know it sounds like an April Fool's joke, but it wasn't you know what they say about dates and everything, so yeah, and um, and it was.
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It was super stressful because I uh, there'd been quite a few cancers in my family and I'd lost a few family members and, um, some cousins, even um, around about the same age as me, from cancer, and so I was really, really scared what I was doing.
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At that time, though, because of the stress of the job that I had, I was actually drinking quite a lot.
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I was smoking quite heavy.
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I wasn't really.
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I thought I was smoking quite heavy.
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I wasn't really.
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I thought I was healthy, you know, and I thought that I ate quite well and I exercised, I rode horses, you know, I had dogs, I walked a lot, I lived in the country, did all of the things, but and I couldn't understand, you know why I was diagnosed with cancer and for some reason it didn't even enter my head.
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Well, you've been drinking for years, you've been smoking for years, you know, maybe you haven't been eating properly, but I decided that I had to really kind of quit, I had to change my life, but I had to look at the stress.
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I couldn't keep on going the way that I was going, because a lot of the drinking and smoking anyway was self-medicating.
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It was trying to relieve some of the stress and the pressure.
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So I started with the job and that's what led me to retrain to be a clinical hypnotherapist.
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I had some hypnotherapy as part of my treatment to help me kind of process what was going on with the cancer and everything.
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And it was just it, it was just amazing it was.
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It really helped me kind of put things into perspective and work out a plan really of what I needed to do.
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Um, I knew for sure that I wanted to live and I knew that if I continued on the, the trajectory that I was on, that, you know, I wasn't going to.
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You know, even if this cancer was, um, healed, you know, even even if through treatment it was healed, if I kept drinking and smoking and being stressed to death, it it was just going to come back somewhere else maybe.
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Um, so yeah, so I I thought, right, let's change the job.
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Um, so I did that, became a hypnotherapist and then I used hypnosis to stop smoking.
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Um, a couple of years later, used hypnosis to stop drinking.
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Then I found out I was actually addicted to sugar because there's so much sugar in alcohol.
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So when I stopped drinking it was like I can't get enough cakes and things.
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I was like my appetite has picked up but I quit drinking as much wine and having a shot, you know um, but I noticed my appetite is like where's the sweets?
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So yeah, thank.
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God for Valentine's Day.
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Well, I mean, I don't eat any now, or very rarely, and usually, if I have any chocolate or anything, I'll have like very, very, very dark.
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I don't know if you've ever tried 100% chocolate before it.
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It doesn't taste that nice, um, but I'll have something like that if I, if I fancy um any any chocolate, because I also became vegan too.
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Um, when I, when I started to look into breast cancer and cancer in general and diet and all of that, I mean you can go a bit down a rabbit hole, but I found that I was getting lots of tummy upsets.
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You know, I was and it's weird because I can't remember having these when I was drinking.
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It all seemed to happen after I was drinking these dietary things and I used to buy I don't know if you can get them where you are, but we have these little kind of they're like little yogurt drinks, like what do you call them?
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Like prebiotics, probiotic things.
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Oh, okay, I was thinking the animals, yeah.
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So I used to drink those, thinking they were really good for me.
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But every time I had one my stomach was just bloating and growling.
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So I had an intolerance test and it found I was sensitive to gluten and also dairy, and I used to eat loads of cheese, um, so I just thought you know what?
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I'm just gonna go the whole hog.
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So I just cut all animal products out, all sugar out, so I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't eat sugar or processed foods and I don't eat any meat or dairy, any animal products now.
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But I feel amazing.
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Um, that's good, yeah, and it's.
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And it's almost 11 years now since I was diagnosed with breast cancer and so since then I have, um, I work now with women mainly.
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I do do do work with men as well, but I market to women because I kind of I want to be able to help women who were in my situation.
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So I was a professional person, I was educated, but I was very highly stressed and burnt out, which was leading to these addictions and and almost kind of like a self-harm in a way, really.
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Um, and I used to think I would never stop drinking.
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I used to think it was impossible to stop smoking, um, and so when I did it it was just like wow, I can't believe how easy it was.
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With hypnosis, you know, it was just like I was blown away.
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So now I help.
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You know my, my.
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I see my purpose as being able to help women to um, to be able to kind of overcome similar issues.
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You know, even if that is something like anxiety or lack of confidence or like a what's the word, you know, like imposter syndrome or something, any of those things can lead us down a path where we are kind of not particularly in control of our, of ourselves and um and our.
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You know our direction and it can, um, cause us to behave in ways that we may not want to, or habits and addictions and things.
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So, um, so that's what you know.
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That's kind of where I'm at, but I've added into um.
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I also trained as a meditation teacher because it's all about the.
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You know that's kind of where I'm at, but I've added into I also trained as a meditation teacher because it's all about the, you know the changing and rewiring the subconscious mind.
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And then I have now studying yoga as well.
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So bringing everything together, working with the mind and the body for the whole self, which is amazing.
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It's yeah.
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Yeah, yeah, I've never tried yoga.
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I've seen it, you know, but I've never tried it.
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I have tried meditation and hypnotherapy.
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I did by listening to one of my last speakers he does it like on a video and we'll walk you through it and I was like, but I remember I did fall asleep and I remember at the end of the video, for some reason, there was this loud noise and I woke up.
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I was like I don't know that that's normal, like if you're watching a video of it, that they want you to wake up.
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But I just thought I was going to drift away and go to sleep okay.
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So the the aim is not to go to sleep, the aim is to kind of get you in that, um, very relaxed state, but you're still just I'm not saying I haven't had clients fall asleep, because I have, which in a way is a compliment, because they're so relaxed, but that's, you're not really wanting to get somebody asleep, you're wanting them to be deeply relaxed and you can still hear everything.
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But it shouldn't, kind of really it shouldn't disturb you.
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You know to to.
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Your focus should be on on the hypnotherapist voice.
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But I, I do work online too and um, okay, I've worked with people in America and um in Italy and New Zealand and um, spain and places like that, and it, it, it works very, very well.
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But you would I don't know about the person that you worked with, but I would, yeah, get you to kind of just close your eyes and and relax while you're, you know, while you're listening, but then I purposefully bring people back out of that.
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So maybe there was just something that fell off.
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It could have been just a video, who knows Like that part of the video and maybe that was just a thing to say okay, your time is up.
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This was a free video or something, so I'm not 100% sure, but I'm intrigued to learn more about this because I know, even with meditation, I was in a group and we did a group meditation and it was so amazing.
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I could not believe the energy in that room and it was like I could feel myself actually leave my body and I was floating up, looking down.
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I was in space, I guess, because it was beautiful, but I could feel myself actually leave my body and I was floating up, looking down.
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I was in space, I guess, because it was beautiful, but I could see America and we were praying for people, and I just prayed for nurses and teachers, but it looked like a gridlock of lights all over and I was like I didn't want to leave that moment one bit.
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I felt so heavenly, I felt like my word was getting out more by doing this meditation.
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So, yeah, but that was many, many, many years ago and I did go back to the same place and they're not there anymore and I was like, oh man, I really wanted to go and do that again and stuff more.
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And I was like, oh man, I really wanted to go and do that again and stuff.
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And now they opened a store in Allen called the Mindful Mermaid and I want to look into that a little bit more too, because that meditation, oh, it's so relaxing to the soul.
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Yeah, it sounds like you had an amazing experience because there's lots of different types of meditation, and I think that that's what drew me to kundalini yoga more than anything, because it it's not like other genres of yoga and it it, um, it works.
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It it it of kind of um, like chanting and mantra, and like, exactly like you've just said, when you're in a group and you're all kind of chanting together, the energy is just amazing.
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You feel fantastic and yeah, and people have all different kinds of experiences and and it it's yeah, it can be just blissful, it's just a beautiful place to be, isn't it?
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It's, it's gorgeous it really is.
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There's nothing like it.
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Mean, I grew up with epilepsy.
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I've had out-of-body experiences.
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One of them was like so different I'm just going to have to ask God when I see them.
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But I was walking up white stairs into the sky.
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I got to the door and I heard we're just not ready for you, and I felt backwards.
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But I felt myself land into my body.
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I think I was nine years old and I sat up and the doctor's like you just had a seizure, are you okay?
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I go yeah, I'm ready to go home.
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I was with God.
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Wow, I was like I didn't know what to say Young children now, up until the age of seven, I mean, we know that they haven't developed the prefrontal cortex yet in the brain, so they don't have the ability to use logic and they tend to live in their subconscious mind.
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They're in the present, their, they're in the present, they're completely in the present.
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Um, however, also, you know children, very, very young children.
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They're very close to, they're very close to source, so that you know, because they're, they're newly, they're newborn, aren't they?
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So they, so they have this um, you know this kind of this sense, I suppose, of of their soul and where we came from, um, and I just think it's so sad that we lose this as we get older yeah and it sounds like that was like your experience, you know.
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Well, I was very, at a young age, intuitive let's put it that way and then it was kind of like growing up, like I think it was in my 20s, going into 30s.
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I learned more about myself and I'll just say I'm awake.
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So I have been through that journey and but it brought me closer to that part at that time and, yes, I'm writing about it.
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So now I feel like the reliving of it and what I truly learned and what I really took away from that and how can I use that to bring it, you know, onto the new version of me, who is 47 and rising up to probably be 80 or something, who knows?
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But yeah, it's like a new chapter, or maybe I'm having a midlife crisis, who knows, maybe I'm having a midlife crisis, who knows?
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I think we get to a certain point in life where we, you know, much like with young children, I think we kind of we lose touch with that for a while, and then I think we get to a certain age where we are almost kind of searching for that again.
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Like you say, that it's kind of like the, the home we're trying to find, our home, um, and, and so I and again, I think you would love kundalini yoga, you would love it, um, and I think that that's what that does for me, it, it, it, you know it kind of um, it, it's it, it kind of helps you and and steers you to understand a little bit more about that kind of awakening, if you like, or, or your, you know your purpose and your direction and and, um, and it's, it's, it's just, I think he would absolutely love it.
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But when you said, you know, I had a crazy experience once when I was having my daughter and she's 30 now and I remember my husband at the time, you know, I remember sitting up in bed thinking and I said to him I just died, I just died, I've come back to life, I've just died, and he was like, don't be crazy, you know, it's just the gas and air.
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But I can remember, like you've just said, I I was kind of.
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I came, I went right up into the corner of the room and it was all white and I was looking down and I could see myself giving birth to my daughter.
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I remember it was just before, actually, she was delivered and I actually found it a bit frightening, actually, a bit a bit kind of scary, um, but I will never forget it, it, you know it.
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It was just I was in two different places, I was looking down on me, so whether or not I did die and I was, I don't know.
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Um, I didn't get any message, but but it, it, it was surreal.
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It was.
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Yeah, yeah, I even one of my seizures I had was when I worked at Macy's and um, we get like a thing called Aurora it lets us know 10 to 15 minutes before it could happen, and I guess I just decided to get to the bathroom, which was probably a big mistake, but then again, maybe it wasn't, because I didn't want anybody to see me have this.
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However, I guess in the stall I went down and maybe hit my head against the toilet, maybe hit my head against the toilet.
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I then was standing outside of my body and I saw myself up against the panel with our security guard Nadine, don't die on us, come back.
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And I'm like I am right here.
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I am just like right here, like hello, hello, I'm looking at you, I'm not dead.
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And I was like why am I here feeling the outside talking?
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She can't hear me, why does she keep thinking I'm dead?
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And I remember I went back into my body and then I came back out.
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She got me out of the bathroom but like I was a bridal consultant, I have full knowledge of everything.
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My favorite bed was hotel collection, but they put me on Martha Stewart for some reason.
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I laugh about this now because when I went back out of my body I was like on a bed, people standing around the ambulance.
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I was like, what is going on?
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Where am I going?
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Where's my body going?
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Should I go with it?
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Like, why is she having me on, martha Stewart?
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This is crazy.
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And then I got into.
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I felt myself go back in.
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I know I was at the hospital.
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My aunt came to visit me and she's so sweet, she's like.
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I brought some food and it was noodles and beef tips.
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I ate it.
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But it put me back in a seizure and I was like but I didn't jump out of my body that time.
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So there has been many cases like now, not only the first time it happens, and I had to ask my neurologist, like why is this really happening to me?
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Like, can I have that availability to just jump out and not feel the seizure?
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It's unexplained, let's just leave it at that.
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So yeah, I think we don't have the capacity necessarily to understand it and and I think, um, I think sometimes, with you know, the the medical sciences, I think I think things are changing, but I think, on the whole, mostly, um, they're not really willing to entertain that side of things and and um, because they can't explain it.
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Yeah, and you know, but we are energy, aren't we, at the end of the day?
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Yes, I just think it's so fascinating, you know, and whether it's linked to you know, your epilepsy, you know, or what I don't know.
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You know, maybe it's more likely to happen when.
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When that happens, I don't know, it's unexplained, but it's, it's really interesting.
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Yeah, have you ever been scared when it's happened?
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Then?
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Have I ever been what, af?
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no, no, I had peace.
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It's like, well, the first I did.
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I was so young the first time, but because of the first time I had no fear.
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And then I remember, um, um, what was it?
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I was scared when that was this the last time, Maybe four years ago.
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Those stupid edibles I have chronic pain.
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So I was directed what to eat of this Hershey bar thing and I was told to eat half, like half, the bar when it should have been a tiny little square.
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That sent me into seizure and I really thought I was dead.
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I couldn't even feel my body, my left side of my body, and I still have an effect called neuralgia parathosichia now from my leg, and I do feel that.
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You know, coming back, I was feeling paralyzed and I was telling it was not white this time when I went out, which is really weird.
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But I remember saying I named my kids full names, I'm not ready to go.
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And then I was like I named my kids full names, I'm not ready to go.
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And then I was like I hated the feeling of the seizure.
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It would not.
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It felt like five to six hours, but I remember saying I can't feel any of my body.
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If this is going to be my new life.
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I don't want to be here.
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Just take me, please take me, and you know so you're battling.
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Take me, please take me, and you know so you're you're battling.
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Do you really want to be here and have maybe all this pain and still be with the kids, or you know what is it that you want?
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And because it wasn't a white light, that kind of like, I felt like I was kind of stuck.
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Does that make sense?
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I was in between, not knowing where I was going, but I had major decisions to make.
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So I don't know it was different, but that was a seizure that I remember, sitting up and telling the guy I was dating I died.
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He's like you'll be okay.
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He did the same thing to me.
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I was like no, I really died.
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These men, you know they're all the same, aren't they?
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oh yes, I'm not go back to sleep.
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Yeah, um, you know, I'm just not sure that they are as intuitive, um, as a swimmer at times.
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I'm not saying they're all like that, but I think that, yeah, I'm not sure that they are really.
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Now sometimes, you know, I think, especially now that I'm dating, I'm always wondering are the guys really listening to the woman too?
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You know, because we want to be heard, we want to share stuff.
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You know we want to be heard, we want to share stuff, you know.
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It's just, you know.
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I think, you know, with the guys they're working, they're always tired, Lots of things going on, but it's just like a breathing time.
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Hopefully they can refocus and see what they need to focus on.
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If that makes sense to us women.
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Yeah, I've been single for a while now, um, and I like it because, um, I find I can be a lot more creative.
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Um, maybe it's, I don't know, maybe it is about control or something, but I, um, I just feel that I can.
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I can do more, you know, and, and I have done more.
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I've done so much more.
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I've traveled more, um, you know, I've done more in my work and my business and everything, um, I've achieved so much more, I think, while I've been on my own.
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Don't know whether that's just because I've been a lot more, you know, focused, I haven't got to consider anybody else, um, or whether it's because, yeah, it's like a sense of freedom.
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I don't have to, I don't have to check anything by anyone.
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You know, I don't.
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Yeah, I can do what I want, which is just brilliant and amazing that is, yeah, I've learned, like the thing is, I've been single and I was like, can I stay single and be very happy?
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And I think the answer comes down to no.
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And then I'm starting to analyze why is that?
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And then I started building my bucket list.
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Well, I want to travel more, but why do I think I need a guy to travel with?
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You know, I could do this on my own, or maybe just have a friend, a new girlfriend, and you know, hey, let's take a road trip.
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You know, just so I have that company.
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But I know, as I start to date, I'm setting up boundaries and learning about myself.
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Still, what is it that I need?
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I think right now I do feel a little insecure because of last year, what I've been through, trying to date and I've been it hasn't been pleasant, I'll just say it.
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It hasn't been pleasant at all, but I learned from it, I'm growing from it.
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